tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2433568854715449912024-03-14T03:07:12.012+08:00Life Isn't Honey -- ♫♫♫Life was never fair to begin with.희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.comBlogger160125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-26423208503159283792024-01-05T23:57:00.006+08:002024-01-05T23:57:44.062+08:00My Version of Odyssey Plans Exercise<h3 style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-weight: 400;">Inspired by "Design Your Life", I have completed the exercise as listed in Chapter 5 to design my lives. Below are pictures of what I have accomplished, and my reflections below for me to ponder about my future:</span></h3><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiX3LGy6-P-kQxaepfw7A4ahifczesiX-CC5jGjE3xopxrHd9eVEDaDst7aF8Mfk5Xb23BRgHSqROH8wba-48U2fIAba3v_JvLDOwz4sq1ntuvcndJvrKEumMybDMxvvDXD7KwQyCIYkPzmjKfJegAltUyUsW6Tr7oSvULnh56Jr2FaMWgINp2b_zy9SQgz/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202024-01-05%20at%2011.54.20%20PM.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="1280" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiX3LGy6-P-kQxaepfw7A4ahifczesiX-CC5jGjE3xopxrHd9eVEDaDst7aF8Mfk5Xb23BRgHSqROH8wba-48U2fIAba3v_JvLDOwz4sq1ntuvcndJvrKEumMybDMxvvDXD7KwQyCIYkPzmjKfJegAltUyUsW6Tr7oSvULnh56Jr2FaMWgINp2b_zy9SQgz/s320/WhatsApp%20Image%202024-01-05%20at%2011.54.20%20PM.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhk0HTxw_cbojBqlKnu6c-Aeer_4sR9-UVAA_XQoHQt85rNk7MMoRsm7qWe-Wp6x5U5AIibwBNa1L4vm5187jDAOlrncoTX78z17F-lWQW0ccoiNUf7KJbA0wYH7MF_8JQqU13wt2KfFKaSQwlGQizq7GnrVPwl60D84HfVDJxrldVE2deSBdq7XdyAcBU/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202024-01-05%20at%2011.54.20%20PM%20(1).jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="960" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhk0HTxw_cbojBqlKnu6c-Aeer_4sR9-UVAA_XQoHQt85rNk7MMoRsm7qWe-Wp6x5U5AIibwBNa1L4vm5187jDAOlrncoTX78z17F-lWQW0ccoiNUf7KJbA0wYH7MF_8JQqU13wt2KfFKaSQwlGQizq7GnrVPwl60D84HfVDJxrldVE2deSBdq7XdyAcBU/s320/WhatsApp%20Image%202024-01-05%20at%2011.54.20%20PM%20(1).jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibmZSK_bVf0S2Pl4GwJ12Atc3poD6hBiHkHzIFa9pxuksPZTv-MvxER9fVCa2eXhRWd5AVtEBkQi60OoC0Mx_l2rr0DTN6QPqePiRWogMZZDaPJNz9zhFcqn-zKz_MxoHUOpSQWzkAJJWTQUgf1if_wMpk71vBM24mMgjMjp6HqPHfzbPj5JtzwZQdLu0K/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202024-01-05%20at%2011.54.21%20PM.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="960" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibmZSK_bVf0S2Pl4GwJ12Atc3poD6hBiHkHzIFa9pxuksPZTv-MvxER9fVCa2eXhRWd5AVtEBkQi60OoC0Mx_l2rr0DTN6QPqePiRWogMZZDaPJNz9zhFcqn-zKz_MxoHUOpSQWzkAJJWTQUgf1if_wMpk71vBM24mMgjMjp6HqPHfzbPj5JtzwZQdLu0K/s320/WhatsApp%20Image%202024-01-05%20at%2011.54.21%20PM.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkLHH7vLZj4egobUH67WZwIB-GBDkL9N1_qboLI5L2fgjIkp8VNgl-ZQ0hmpYxkKX4so7u0H_YTKS6iA9sc7N1S_CLl3K-AQC718OOhOStpfI8sH4sc-qaBXeioKIn2a7jckPl7zmT2keaDumEUiy43yLvL7w1B5cB3Hnv13Tr2HV8h9sgSvwsTE2zTAsZ/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202024-01-05%20at%2011.54.22%20PM.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="960" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkLHH7vLZj4egobUH67WZwIB-GBDkL9N1_qboLI5L2fgjIkp8VNgl-ZQ0hmpYxkKX4so7u0H_YTKS6iA9sc7N1S_CLl3K-AQC718OOhOStpfI8sH4sc-qaBXeioKIn2a7jckPl7zmT2keaDumEUiy43yLvL7w1B5cB3Hnv13Tr2HV8h9sgSvwsTE2zTAsZ/s320/WhatsApp%20Image%202024-01-05%20at%2011.54.22%20PM.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><span style="font-size: medium; font-weight: 400;"><br /></span></div><div><br /></div><h3 style="text-align: left;"><b><u><span style="font-family: courier;">Thoughts in My Head:</span></u></b></h3><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Looking at the white board in front of me, it feels wholesome; like I have accomplished something. It started out simple as I laid out what I have been doing all this while. One sentence to summarize a whole category of my life. It is no wonder that I felt unsatisfied. Whatever I have been doing was not enough. It was not enough to take me to the final destination of where I want to go; where I would like to be. I have always been going with the flow. But, without struggles, how can I arrive at the destination that I seek? To be fair, when I think about struggles.. my whole body tensed up. It reminded me of the days I had back at <b><i>1024</i></b>. It started out pleasant and exciting. But, towards the end, it just caused every nerve and fiber of my being to be tensed. I can see why I prefer my life to be struggle-free for now. But, it seems like it is still not enough for me to feel satisfied when I look at the first column that I wrote for myself.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">After Dib came, life was a little unbalanced. I had to find a new balance as I sorted out how Dib was going to fit into my life. My ideals for romantic relationships are very different from my ideals for solo living. And Dib's entry into my life proved that as I stopped caring about previous commitments and prioritized him over many sections of my life. I feel more strongly towards discrimination and prejudice by my family. I feel less inclined to work out more as I used the time to relax or spend more time with Dib. Solo travelling and socializing was out of the question since financials were tight. And, luxurious self-care became only a dream since I could not even prioritize basic self-care. It was a mess as I let myself loose; to the point where I reached my heaviest weight again at the beginning of this year. It was a sordid reminder to myself that I am unable to climb out of this rabbit hole that I have dug for myself. But, the amount of energy to achieve all this is tremendous. Not to mention the time and commitment to myself that I have to prioritize time and time again. If Dib had never entered my life, I would never have been able to feel truly independent since I will most likely still be living with my parents. I would have never been truly happy since I always wanted someone who would only love me like how I love them (not blood-related). But, I recognize that all of these components are an important part of my life. I have a theory that the energy lacking to fulfill all of these has been spent on building and maintaining the relationship I have with Dib, and also to fuel my own basic needs at the moment for survival. Most likely, I have to identify activities that energize me more than they drain me so that I can allocate some to the important points of column #2.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Ah.. we have reached column #3. It is really the dream to be honest. Everything I want, whenever I want. I feel like I am currently not doing anything at the moment to work towards it. But, this activity is a very good wake-up call to let me know that I would like to live the life that I had designed in column #3. Everything listed really does complement my whole personality, and how I prioritized myself and those I loved above society, community, and the rest of the world. Self-love is essential in column #3, and I can respect that need because it is hard to do and achieve fully in today's world. I guess it is time for me to stop thinking this is a dream, and to start living the dream instead. After all, I was the one that designed column #3.</span></div><div><br /></div>tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-46621349637110830222023-12-29T02:38:00.004+08:002023-12-29T02:38:58.022+08:00My Version of Designing Your Life -> Mind Mapping (Getting Unstuck)<h1 style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">Empowering Myself</span></h1><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgGXtULdCcOkoPDLV0gY7Imkk3UKNYxt2WROVZdyGTpxxPW_5CkiJsV5WXqO2vzoLKSQq4iZGJWSj8CgYLEUWMd0vRKheNnj_O04RyzT4QvJX0JTyfeE5vrKKDz62YFElx6brcr1KNR2XrkOvErl1Z8DhEoc6rbRhOrd33lwFbjKmfLCdjRBHX-v0f1TFpC/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-12-29%20at%201.14.57%20AM.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="1280" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgGXtULdCcOkoPDLV0gY7Imkk3UKNYxt2WROVZdyGTpxxPW_5CkiJsV5WXqO2vzoLKSQq4iZGJWSj8CgYLEUWMd0vRKheNnj_O04RyzT4QvJX0JTyfeE5vrKKDz62YFElx6brcr1KNR2XrkOvErl1Z8DhEoc6rbRhOrd33lwFbjKmfLCdjRBHX-v0f1TFpC/s320/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-12-29%20at%201.14.57%20AM.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div><br /><div><b><br /></b></div><div><b>Job Description (Model):</b></div><div>As a side hustle to provide for a luxury lifestyle, a model is needed to support
this flower business that allows the public to filter us out from the rest of
the common folk. Working full-time is optional since flexibility is prioritized in
this job.</div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">
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Exclusivity is not provided as everyone is treated equally.</div></div></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjB8UWR6q_EJYWUPiKHRn2QBurmslCzN8fa2jNxfMZVWXLCVN867JDXlmnxXt4hyphenhyphenOMs35NqYhAHbUX6o7od1eXlFwQT4UAOom-ENZifBdgfOwYVOuz2ndJqXAg1gOzpeBGOZJKDkgn4S_2dLb3z3w7Pw4WXCnS4Ij2MtQV9D-lAI3ixhs-7XIcr8HwHLQfR/s1024/Looking%20for%20a%20s%205e874c64-5dcb-4889-88c7-74a520b9e72e.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1024" data-original-width="1024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjB8UWR6q_EJYWUPiKHRn2QBurmslCzN8fa2jNxfMZVWXLCVN867JDXlmnxXt4hyphenhyphenOMs35NqYhAHbUX6o7od1eXlFwQT4UAOom-ENZifBdgfOwYVOuz2ndJqXAg1gOzpeBGOZJKDkgn4S_2dLb3z3w7Pw4WXCnS4Ij2MtQV9D-lAI3ixhs-7XIcr8HwHLQfR/s320/Looking%20for%20a%20s%205e874c64-5dcb-4889-88c7-74a520b9e72e.png" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><h1><span style="font-size: x-large;">Energized: Exercising</span></h1><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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tO b3 conTinu3d..
</div></div>희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-77559211581335628882023-12-24T06:30:00.000+08:002023-12-24T06:30:51.454+08:00My Good Time Journal of the Past (1993 - 2023)<blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0 0 0 40px; padding: 0px;"><div style="text-align: left;">I have been reading <i>"Designing Your Life" </i>recently. One of the tools given was the <b>Good Time Journal</b>, and a suggestion was given to try this activity not only for the next whole month, but also to try it on my past to see what I can learn from history to apply today. Hence, I will be dividing this Good Time Journal into 3 sections: 0-10, 11-20, 21-30</div></blockquote><p><br /></p><p>0-10</p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjcSw50kPrzMPhw4Ix8MkVU8w75zZHUFgC7rbauvoRmQy8QgLG3ASvicozfFfx0gLFKJpBDRxGxmKzrHFxE4ejJ7EXZiFe7X19UxGlsNqSzXjzzW7jUAkrQqqH_owUn75o7SbLWthWFHNwfYFaOhROfOWJVXl_7miaomRdxU3-kFy4qaNWhkGaC77kc5m2Q" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="875" data-original-width="746" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjcSw50kPrzMPhw4Ix8MkVU8w75zZHUFgC7rbauvoRmQy8QgLG3ASvicozfFfx0gLFKJpBDRxGxmKzrHFxE4ejJ7EXZiFe7X19UxGlsNqSzXjzzW7jUAkrQqqH_owUn75o7SbLWthWFHNwfYFaOhROfOWJVXl_7miaomRdxU3-kFy4qaNWhkGaC77kc5m2Q" width="205" /></a></div><br /><br /></div><br /><p></p><p>11-20</p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEib_gdX_q_09X6HgyyBQ45LgTWQ59FwCJqlGcwva1xMEfQABPmy_JDqp3kVngKVKZ65dFEXZPciOeRgEgL_c7ealRyqn8XbhnOIHUKitLzoyx56PTTDvNFiK4Bm2EI2TuEVVJbJ60sYlfBOg40y7BygzufpdfKgDRIw5ORfxAdayaSmgiih1xIyXx_n8XHZ" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="791" data-original-width="727" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEib_gdX_q_09X6HgyyBQ45LgTWQ59FwCJqlGcwva1xMEfQABPmy_JDqp3kVngKVKZ65dFEXZPciOeRgEgL_c7ealRyqn8XbhnOIHUKitLzoyx56PTTDvNFiK4Bm2EI2TuEVVJbJ60sYlfBOg40y7BygzufpdfKgDRIw5ORfxAdayaSmgiih1xIyXx_n8XHZ" width="221" /></a></div><br /><br /><p></p><p><br /></p><p>21-30</p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEijNgJuMkLQvY-MN7EUmWPQyoAEYzX8kJiwJAB1bGY9fg2T1pH970MTB4aBOEK_AHkvfh3f8IMENqrRlYmAj8D-xB4-kRnktdHw4wmvjrb9IId_31-_DszEuUeN17x5zZvcRHoimHp1nA4UEbKKe_LFMId1Z7H8Lv2bhpoCmw4Ovz4SxGVT2pKgjIXyCra0" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="860" data-original-width="736" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEijNgJuMkLQvY-MN7EUmWPQyoAEYzX8kJiwJAB1bGY9fg2T1pH970MTB4aBOEK_AHkvfh3f8IMENqrRlYmAj8D-xB4-kRnktdHw4wmvjrb9IId_31-_DszEuUeN17x5zZvcRHoimHp1nA4UEbKKe_LFMId1Z7H8Lv2bhpoCmw4Ovz4SxGVT2pKgjIXyCra0" width="205" /></a></div><br /><br /><p></p><p> </p><div><br /></div>tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-23289296261528230692023-11-29T20:41:00.001+08:002023-12-24T06:31:43.429+08:00In The Abyss<div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Imagine standing on nothingness.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">There is everything.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">And there is also nothing.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Something tugs downward at your heart.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">As if trying to make you sink deeper into the darkness.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">There is no sense of gravity, even when falling down.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">No speed to indicate whether it is fast or slow.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Just the endless darkness.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">That is why you do not feel fear.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">For fear tells you if you are at a high place or if danger is around the corner.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">But, you do not see nor hear anything in here.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You do not feel fear.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">But yet, you also see and hear everything.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You are not sure on which target you would like to focus on first.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">As everything is swirling about.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">But, you grabbed one string and tug at it.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">And, suddenly, it comes towards you.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Hurling straight at your face.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Not able to escape, you brace yourself for the impact.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;"><br /></span></div><h4 style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Work</span></h4><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">That tensed feeling is gone.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">The one that always comes weekly.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Or whenever you see them.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">"Thoughts from Me to You" was your last hope for them.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">But, it was unwelcomed.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">It was not safe.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">It was not supported.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">And, you moved on to another place.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">At first, the place seems too bright with lights and rainbows.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">But, you soon realized that the bright colors were a distraction.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To distract oneself from the reality.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">And the more you step, the stickier the colors become.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Making it harder and harder for you to move forward.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Making it more harder and harder for you to avoid any possible landmines.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You decided to call it quits.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You have the power to decide for yourself.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">And, you did not choose to jump from a sinking ship to a sinking rowboat.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;"><br /></span></div><h4 style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Friends</span></h4><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">One by one, they left you behind.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">They seem to have it all.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Be it power, wealth, status, fame, love, kids.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">The events you desired.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">The surprises and the gifts.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You still have a few close ones that you cherish.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">And, you are still grateful that they are there.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">But, your circle seems to get smaller and smaller.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">For whenever you decide to expand it through work, you seem to notice something.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">The people at work stay as your friends only at work.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">And most of the time, they do not acknowledge you as friends at all.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">They may laugh, smile, complain, and speak to you as though you are a friend.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">But, if you count your fingers, less than 10 actually stay until the end.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">The dwindling circle of friends seem to grow lesser and less.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">And, more friends who are younger start to appear.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You start to feel old.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">And slowly but surely, you start to lose touch.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;"><br /></span></div><h4 style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Love</span></h4><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">The one that troubles you most.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">The one that makes you sigh.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">The one that makes you feel so contradicted.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You feel hope, yet feel hopeless.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You feel optimistic, yet feel pessimistic.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You feel safe, yet feel unsafe.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You feel assured, yet not assured.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You feel loved, yet feel unloved.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">The events that you desire.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">The hope that he can step up.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To be surprised with dates and gifts.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To be given the support that you need.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Not needing to nag and complain.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Not needing to plead and beg.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Not needing to drag your feet.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Not needing to pull beyond your own weight.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To not be called selfish.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To not be called not understanding.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To not be called naggy.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To always be supported with kind words and acts of service.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To always be understood.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To always be listened.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To have quality time to have quality conversations.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To be given patience when having difficult conversations.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To have promises fulfilled.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To be returned money.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To be supported with money.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To always be there for you.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To always be there with you.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To be able to feel safe.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To be given what you needed.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">To be loved the way you wanted.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;"><br /></span></div><h4 style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Family</span></h4><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Poor in financials and attitude.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Racist against other races and cultures.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Negativity in terms of words.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Negativity is how they show they love you.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Buying you items is how they show their love for you.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Full of toxicity and lack of understanding.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Quick to judge, and slow to accept.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">But, slowly, the mist is gradually dissipating.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Ray of hopeful lights are shining through for this one.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">But, only the future knows what will happen in the end.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;"><br /></span></div><div><h4><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Money</span></h4><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">A never ending problem.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You were raised to conserve.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You were raised to save.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You were raised to never speak about it.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">You were never taught how to properly invest.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Making it work for you rather than you work for it seems like a long shot at this point.</span></div></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Not that you do not know how.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">But, somehow, you feel demotivated to do so.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">What is stopping you?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;"><br /></span></div><h4 style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Body</span></h4><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Fat.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Chubby.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Unhealthy.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Lack of strength.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Lack of stamina.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Not perfect.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Not the way you wanted.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">A work in progress.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">But, the light at the end of the tunnel.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Can it still be seen?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Or has it grown dimmer by the day?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;"><br /></span></div><h4 style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Mind</span></h4><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Negativity all the way.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Barely any positivity in your actions.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Spirituality: nil.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Dissociated.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Locked away.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Not being touched on.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Not being worked on.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Not being interested in it.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">It is like you have given up.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Is your resilience at the end of its life cycle?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Can it not be jumpstarted?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;"><br /></span></div><h4 style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Soul</span></h4><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Nothingness.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Emptiness.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">Darkness.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;"><br /></span></div><span style="font-family: Shadows Into Light;">tO b3 conTinu3d..</span>희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-91923721763545438482022-10-29T15:18:00.005+08:002022-10-29T15:18:47.795+08:00Afternoon Thoughts<div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">I noticed lately that it is happening more and more..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">The ache in my heart..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">The yearning..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">The slight jealousy..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">And then, the increased unease..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">In myself.. in him..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">It is not that I do not trust him..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">It is more like.. I keep wondering when it is my turn..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">I wanted the surprises..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">The romance..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">The dates..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">The preparations..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Some flowers?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Some gifts?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Yes.. I got love, I got hugs, I got kisses, I got food..</span></div><div><b><span style="font-family: Bitter;">But, I feel more and more like.. a mum?</span></b></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">That really sucks.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">To a pet.. it is no big deal.</span></div><div><b><span style="font-family: Bitter;">But to another grown human being..?</span></b></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">I haven't done a lot of what I wanted to do yet..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Travelling..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Having fun..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Being worry-free..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Parents are increasingly telling me more about reality..</span></div><div><i><span style="font-family: Bitter;">But, what use is reality if I find myself not wanting to enjoy the present?</span></i></div><div><i><span style="font-family: Bitter;">What use is reality if I keep distracting myself, and avoiding it head-on?</span></i></div><div><i><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></i></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">I keep finding myself looking ahead.. I kept looking forward..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">I kept having to plan what is going to happen in the future.. mostly about money .-.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">And I keep finding videos of not setting expectations low..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Being able to find one's true love when that happens..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">But every time I have thoughts like this.. I have always wished..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Why couldn't it be the person I am with.. that helps me with this?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">That does this?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Why are they always not ready?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Like.. they get a partner.. and is that it?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">They focus on their life.. and I focus on mine..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">And then.. what about our future?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">The last few times I felt that they were preparing..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">One.. I had no confidence with..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">And the other.. it was a scam to begin with..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">And the last.. I don't think I really loved the person to begin with..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">But the ones that I really loved..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">That I really pinned my hopes on..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">It makes me wonder.. it makes me curious..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Probably because I do not know the timeline..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">And that, in itself, makes me anxious..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">And even if I do know the timeline..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">And they were not able to be prepared by then..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Won't that be an even bigger letdown?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">I really gotta stop pinning my own hopes and expectations on others..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">I would want them to do it.. but if they wanna do it, it's fine..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">If they don't wanna do it.. it's fine..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">But, I gotta stop expecting that- but if I am giving my all, won't it be a minimum requirement for the other to reciprocate the same?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Or am I just being too nice?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">Letting love win all.. and then whatever suffering and hardships come.. love will always win -> that kind of thinking?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">At the end of the day.. I should remind myself..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">that yes, I care about these topics..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">I wanted the surprise.. the romance.. the gifts.. like, every female wishes to be spoiled in a relationship..</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><i><span style="font-family: Bitter;">But, the only locus of control that I have.. is myself.</span></i></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">And, there is really no point thinking about the other stuff after I let him know what I thought about this so far.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Bitter;"><br /></span></div><span style="font-family: Bitter;">tO b3 conTinu3d..</span>희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-14100756029999502582022-07-10T00:53:00.002+08:002022-07-10T00:53:17.745+08:00Midnight Thoughts<div>The songs are playing in my head.. swirling around like they are next to me.. but, they aren't real.. but the feelings i feel are real though.. i don't feel like scrolling through facebook any more.. it's full of people travelling.. people eating.. people getting married.. people moving on..</div><div><br /></div><div>The songs are playing in my head.. weighing my heart down even more.. i miss my grandma.. she ain't around any more.. when she died, a part of me died with her.. i don't feel any regrets back then because i can't do anything.. but i feel the regret coming now.. me not being able to be with her.. me not being able to help her even though i am a mental health professional.. and me.. not even returning for that last chinese new year family dinner.. the dinner before lockdown started..</div><div><br /></div><div>The songs are playing in my head.. my tears are running down now.. she ain't here any more.. i don't feel her absence very much.. but i am always reminded of it whenever i look into her dog's eyes.. the feelings her dog feels.. how her mistress will never be able to return.. how her mistress left her first.. i carried her dog before to show her mistress lying motionless in the coffin.. her eyes closed.. her body stiff.. her cheeks cold.. it doesn't feel surreal.. even now..</div><div><br /></div><div>The songs are playing in my head.. i felt like i let her down.. actually.. i have always let her down.. i wasn't perfect to begin with.. but her wanting me to not worry my parents.. i am too stubborn to begin with.. she probably turned a blind eye and trying hard not to care because she would have felt that it should be between my parents and i to settle.. but.. her voice.. her hugs.. her birthday wishes.. her food.. her care.. her love.. she isn't here any more..</div><div><br /></div><div>The songs are playing in my head.. my tears are still falling.. i am afraid.. that i will start to forget my memories of her one day.. like how i forgot about my grandpa.. or my other grandma.. or my other pets.. i don't wanna forget her.. but yet.. i feel like with each passing day.. i feel more and more empty.. i haven't felt right for a long time after her death.. even abandoned someone who loved me back then because i don't see the point any more.. i realised shortly after that.. why i wasn't so keen on marriage after that.. i really wanted her to attend it.. even though she was joking.. i wanted her to meet her great grandchildren.. but.. i failed so horribly in that.. nobody i met was ready.. even i was not ready..</div><div><br /></div><div>The songs are playing in my head.. i didn't look for another after that.. had no hope.. no future.. didn't even want to think about it.. i didn't want to pull anyone back into my stupid dreams of marriage.. after all, my grandma was the reason why i wanted it to happen fast in the first place.. and with her gone.. all pressure to rush has disappear..</div><div><br /></div><div><i>and then.. he came along.. he, whom i was interested in quite awhile back.. whom we always chat on and off and on and off and on and off.. he was still interested even after all this while.. and that.. surprised me.. why would he be interested in me.. when there were so many others to begin with.. why would he wanna connect with me.. even when i broke his heart before this.. and why would he wanna meet over and over again.. even though i.. was not looking for someone to begin with?</i></div><div><i><br /></i></div><div><i>i didn't wanna unnecessarily hurt someone</i></div><div><i>and if i do start it, my expectations were hella low</i></div><div><i>expecting nothing from something</i></div><div><i>i won't get hurt from this, right?</i></div><div><i>but, i find myself getting greedy over time</i></div><div><i>and soon, i just want him to be all mine</i></div><div><i>even though i worked on myself and still find myself imperfect</i></div><div><i>and even though i do recognise he is not perfect himself</i></div><div><i>i- i just want us to belong to each other</i></div><div><i>forever</i></div><div><i><br /></i></div><div><i>and then.. i see a glimpse of some hope and some parts of my past dreams coming back.. wanting to be with someone.. wanting to build a future with someone.. it wasn't as strong as before.. there is a lot of hesitancy.. but, as time passes, the hesitancy becomes more and more sure.. and it makes me wonder.. whether i will finally get my happily ever after.. whether i will finally be able to be someone else's officially.. but every time i think about this.. my heart drops and my tears start coming out.. i am scared.. scared of getting my hopes up again.. and wondering.. whether i will be able to survive another fall.. </i></div><div><br /></div>tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-44714607388998211412022-01-16T23:37:00.000+08:002022-01-16T23:37:07.701+08:00What Is It Gonna Be?<div><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">I want to be left alone.</p><p class="p2" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Because I don’t want to deal with all of these feelings inside me. It feels like everything is weighing me down, suffocating me.</p><p class="p2" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">It is a lot.. even thinking about it makes me feel tired.</p><p class="p2" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Back then, loving him.. has always made me feel sad and lonely. The hours committed are not enough, and the silence in between makes me wonder what is happening. There’s no communication, and it does not seem like he’s committed.</p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">So, why am I hung up over him? Just because of one touch? One hangout? That makes me feel like a laughing stock. It is like I created my own world, and he does not even know he existed in it. The world does not revolve around me; not everyone loves me.</p><p class="p2" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><b>I feel like blocking him. I really do.</b><span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p2" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">If he never wanted me back, why did he contact me?<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p2" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><i>"Fool. Just because he texted you out of the blue, it does not mean that he wants you."</i></p><p class="p2" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><i></i><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Why did you decide to come back when I decided to move on?</p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Playing with my heart makes it hard for me to know the truth, hun.</p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">You don’t want me? Stop texting me. 🍳</p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Stop messing around with my heart.</p><p class="p2" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">So now the tables turned, and I am the one to leave.</p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 13px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDRK31POzcnpDNuL684ShX5Rq2hvGVzqhQIrgeOsk2JaRUpAiSv3sQgJNKWbtO22bOdCO4yb57TDz8kHmmPU5koPPB5U3ZU8A7m6eByanOPdOCufw79nd0aI7yM_7f5lXV3zWp-12uIHAU/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="630" data-original-width="1200" height="168" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDRK31POzcnpDNuL684ShX5Rq2hvGVzqhQIrgeOsk2JaRUpAiSv3sQgJNKWbtO22bOdCO4yb57TDz8kHmmPU5koPPB5U3ZU8A7m6eByanOPdOCufw79nd0aI7yM_7f5lXV3zWp-12uIHAU/" width="320" /></a></div><p></p></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-79009260613564557322020-08-13T21:30:00.001+08:002020-08-13T21:30:00.824+08:00Letters from an Onion 🧅 : Sun rays<div>"A tiny part of my heart is so happy to see him safe and laughing</div><div>The other part is a black pit that threatens to suck all of me into it</div><div>He is happy without me</div><div>He is laughing without me</div><div>But.. what about me?"</div><div><br /></div><div>--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------</div><div><br /></div><div>I.. wanna be a part of their lives</div><div><br /></div><div>I stretch out my hand</div><div>Like the leaves of a plant</div><div>Trying to get some of their sunlight</div><div>Trying to get some warmth.. some happiness within</div><div><br /></div><div>But, whenever I felt like I could almost touched it</div><div>My fingers would slip right through it</div><div>The rays of the sun</div><div>And, I would stop again, hesitating</div><div>Looking at my hand as I remember</div><div>That I cannot own the sun</div><div>No matter how much I want it in my life</div><div><br /></div><div>And inside me, a pit would grow</div><div>Ever expanding, ever hungry</div><div>Getting heavier and heavier as I close my eyes</div><div>Threatening to consume me from within</div><div>Making me feel like.. like there is really not much worth to live</div><div><br /></div><div>The rays of the sun seem to shine ever so brightly</div><div>But, they never choose to shine upon me</div><div>It would always be on another flower that has the focus</div><div>As I blend into the scenery</div><div>Ever forgotten, ever not important</div><div><br /></div><div>For I dare not ask for some sun rays</div><div>For what if it was frowned upon</div><div>If it was never mine to begin with</div><div>Any rays of sun I ask for.. means lesser for someone else</div><div>And, this I do not want</div><div><br /></div><div>.. but, I am starving</div><div>I am hungry</div><div>I am dying..</div><div><br /></div><div>How long must I</div><div>keep walking</div><div>keep looking</div><div>keep helping</div><div>keep waiting</div><div><br /></div><div>before I can call you mine?</div><div>Or, was it never meant to be?</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><i>You should always know I wish for your happiness even without me.</i></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-22102077645174845652020-08-08T11:00:00.001+08:002020-08-08T11:00:10.170+08:00Letters from an Onion 🧅 : Her<div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>Don’t be surprised about how quickly you fall for her, and don’t be apprehensive about allowing yourself to fall. She won’t catch you, but rather take the plunge with you holding nothing back. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>She values love in its entirety and believes in it fully. Even if you don’t, she’ll teach you too. </i></span></div><div><i><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Spoil her. Because she’ll spoil you more. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Love her. Because she’ll love you deeper. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Give her your best. Because she will make you better. </span></i></div><div><i><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">She’ll make you the man you want to be. </span></i></div><div><i><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">She’ll make you want to be someone worthy of standing next to her. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">She doesn’t see her beauty. But that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t stop reminding her of how beautiful you think she is. </span></i></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>She’s constantly looking at others, and looking to see what she can do for them. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>She listens with a keen understanding, even to the things you aren’t saying. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>And even when you first met, she was probably taking mental notes of your favourite things; thinking about a birthday or holiday, even if it’s far away.</i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>She’s not afraid of saying things. She’s very blunt. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>That means she gonna catch you off guard a few times, just go with it. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>I’ll admit she’s a little weird. But a good kind of weird, that will make you laugh. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>Because she doesn’t even know she’s funny sometimes. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>She kind of lives in her own world sometimes, but if you are lucky she’ll let you be part of it. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>She’s fun. Like a child she has the ability to turn anything into a game or a competition.</i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>But she’s also, unbelievably competitive and doesn’t like losing. </i></span></div><div><i><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">She’ll do anything for anyone and she never says no. </span></i></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>Don’t take advantage of that. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>But sometimes even she needs someone to slow her down just to enjoy life a little. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>Enjoy the time with her when it is just you guys. </i></span></div><div><i><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">As carefree and loving as she is, there are parts of her life that aren’t as perfect. </span></i></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>In due time, she’ll tell you every secret. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>She’ll tell you exactly why she is the person she is. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>When she tells you her deepest secrets, I promise you’ll love her more. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>Hold her, and don’t let her go. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>Among the things I loved most about her, was her strength. </i></span></div><div><i><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">She has the ability to get through some of the hardest things, life throws her way. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><br /></span></i></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>I won’t try to win her back. I’ll let you have her. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>But just know, the moment you mess up, someone will be there to pick up the pieces, of her broken heart. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>Girls like her are unbelievably hard to find once in a lifetime, let alone twice. </i></span></div><div><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: -apple-system, system-ui, "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, "Hiragino Sans", Arial, "MS PGothic", sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i>Trust me when I say this, of greater regrets you have in life is letting her go. </i></span></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-25140268468882103112020-04-01T19:36:00.002+08:002020-04-01T19:41:29.292+08:00Notes from the Past<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Ever since that day,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> you left footprints in my heart.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Ever since that day,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> you guided me from the dark.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Ever since that day,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> you never broke your promise</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> that you will always stay.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Ever since that day.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">An EX should stay an EX.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">They are the EXample of false love,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and an EXplanation for why you deserve better.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Put down your fears,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Lock away your past.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Live in the present,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">enjoy every moment.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Seek adventures, seek mistakes,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Always have hope that tomorrow is a better day than yesterday.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Believe that curiosity is the key to creativity</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Believe that anything you can imagine, you can make real</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-42120724608909070402020-03-29T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-29T14:44:01.368+08:00I Want<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">I want </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">somebody with a sharp intellect</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">and a heart from hell.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">somebody with eyes like starfire</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">and a mouth with a kiss like a bottomless well.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">but mostly,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i>I just want someone who will love me</i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i>when I do not know how to love myself.</i></span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-58498113811383662992020-03-28T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-28T14:44:01.270+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: Stop<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Your apologies mean nothing,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> if they are all lies.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Your promises are still broken,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> from that day you almost "died".</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">You left me here hanging,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> you kept me here waiting.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">And, for what?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> For what?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> For you to fall back to should you fail another lie?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Stop catfishing.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Stop being someone you are not.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Start living yourself.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Start accepting those who love you,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> and not just only talk.</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-70841290027833925762020-03-27T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-27T14:44:12.675+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: Memories<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">My hands are tired,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">My drink is finishing,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">My ink is fading..</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But, you are still in my memories.</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-41129544635909737462020-03-26T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-26T14:44:02.587+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: Somewhere on this Earth<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Somewhere on this earth,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> you are out there somewhere.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">How have you been?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">What are you doing?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">How are you feeling?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">What are you thinking?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Are you catfishing someone else?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Making them fall in love with you?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Or are you still missing me?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And wondering about me too?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Have you been eating well?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Are you sleeping good?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Have you been watching the shows?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Are your studies/work cool?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Because somewhere on this earth,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> I am still thinking of you.</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-14508085710296637782020-03-25T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-25T14:44:03.850+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: Why Am I Still Here?<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Everybody says I am pretty.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Everybody says I am young.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">They say I still have a life to live.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">They say I will heal and love again.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Move on.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Be strong.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Don't keep holding on.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And, I know I can do it.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But, why am I still here?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Why am I still standing here?</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-8249129228222287072020-03-24T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-24T14:44:13.756+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: Naked<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I guess I really still miss you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I guess I am still here.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">As you left and walked out the door.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I might have smiled and told you "no worries"..</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But, that's just how I am.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Thinking of everybody else but me.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And now I am really hurt.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And now I am left alone.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And now I have to fend for myself.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">When usually you would protect me..</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> from perverts</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> predators</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> stalkers..</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I guess I am naked.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">When left alone.</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-90751313353943295772020-03-23T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-23T14:44:07.684+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: What Am I?<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I still drink my daily blueberry milkshakes</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> or eat the salads whenever I can.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I still don't lend my sister my car</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> or have sex with any man.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">You became a part of my daily life.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But, what am I to you?</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-74186448424982900512020-03-22T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-22T14:44:11.765+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: Rain<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I loved the sound of rain.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I loved the smell it brings.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">It usually calms me down.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Especially when you thought of me.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But, it also reminded me of the times,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">When I was left alone.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">As my house electricity tripped,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And my heart skipped several beats.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I called out for you in the dark,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">As my eyes shone in fear.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Alone, with nowhere to go,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Or you nearby to hold dear.</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-88067870310852857792020-03-21T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-21T14:44:24.269+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: Only Me<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Alone in a world where he made me promised,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">To not spend with anyone but him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">To not trust in anyone but him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">To not fully love anyone but him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">It was us against the world.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">But, now, it's only me.</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-13010456764854433092020-03-20T14:44:00.001+08:002020-03-20T14:44:06.636+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: Alone<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Fairy tales are not true.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Humans lie and steal too.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">So,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">What am I to do?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Thus, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Stranded I am, alone.</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-63625260947638989932020-03-19T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-19T14:44:03.877+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: My Happy Ending<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I wrote so many pages,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> and yet they are still about him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">10 days since Valentine's,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> and yet, all about him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I thought I had moved on,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> but I guess I have not.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">For the void is still there,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> like an empty parking lot.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Cold, ruthless, and ever-expanding,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> lonely, cruel and uninviting.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">As I wait for someone worthy,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> someone like him yet not like him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Someone to love..</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> to have my happy ending.</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-38489864039858017722020-03-18T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-18T14:44:04.366+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: 1.25 Years<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I guess what hurt the most,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> wasn't that he hide.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">It was always the lies,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> the lies, the lies, the lies.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And, now you have to wonder: whether some of it is true?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> For he was with me, 1.25 years too.</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-63412834933602207432020-03-17T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-17T14:44:11.065+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: If<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">And even after exposing,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> he didn't want to come clean.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">He continued to lie,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> and continued to rope me in.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">My heart breaks every time he does that,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> For I had told him so:</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">My love for him will never fade,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> be it sun shine, rain, or snow.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">We may be in different countries,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> or from different cultures.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">But, love wins it all.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">If it was true love, y'know?</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-8620511132435464772020-03-16T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-16T14:44:01.506+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: Sense<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">At that point,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> it all made sense.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Why was I pushed away..</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Why was I asked to marry another man.</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243356885471544991.post-44913716206729885462020-03-15T14:44:00.000+08:002020-03-15T14:44:14.174+08:00Chronicles of Being Catfished: A Lie<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Why am I still so affected?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Why is it always about him?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">For I never felt like this before,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> and it is not even him him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I don't even know, is he girl or guy;</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> though my heart did break and I wanted to cry,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> when I closed my eyes, and heard her voice..</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And, finally the truth..</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> that it was all a lie.</span><br />
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tO b3 conTinu3d..희망의 천사http://www.blogger.com/profile/14721906753406645482noreply@blogger.com0