To JfnCloud
Dear Jay,
Stupid pony.
Ever since I met you, all you have to say about in life since the beginning of our friendship is death, darkness and loneliness. Why are you feeling so hard and down on yourself all the time? That job does not belong to you, and it is not destined to be yours. Everyone knows of the deeds you done for them; they felt it in their hearts. But, not all choose to show although I guess I probably have to stay by your side to remind you from time to time.
There is a reason why everyone manage to outperform you. This is the way the world works so that nobody will boast of their abilities and be arrogant about it. With every performance, everyone will strive to be better. That is how evolution works. Do not take it so deeply to your heart. You know those people who cannot be outperformed by you? They are currently being outperformed by others too. Perhaps deep inside, they might want to be like you. Someone with a kind heart, whom pushes himself to the maximum for the friends he cherished and protects. Everyone who knows you knows how you yearn to be cherished; how long you been searching a light from the way out of the dark.
Let me tell you something you probably already knew. You have tons of friends, but only a small group of close friends. All of us wish the same for you. Happiness. We all tried, one way or another, to bring you up; to surface from the depths of your self-grief. We all tried. One point in our relationship with you, whether it was at the start, in the middle, or at the end. And although many might have given up, there are also many that will try again and again. Always.
Everyone likes you, Jay. That is the reason why people keep you around. You are fun to be with, joking and laughing along with us although there are many times I noticed that smile of yours is not real as your eyes told us everything we need to know. You always have talents and skills of your own. Talents does not necessarily mean you have to excel in Mathematics or doing your assignments and handing them in 2 weeks before the deadline. Talents also involved body language, moral values and one's core personality. And trust me, you are as perfect as the one you wish to be.
Death is not the ending point. There is truly no ending point. One does not need to know where one is going on the road in life. One should just relax and go with the flow. Sure, you will feel like you are wasting time. But, have you considered trying new things you never tried before or risking it all? Be adventurous and let go of the dark. Hold our hand and step foot into the sunlight. It is Adventure Time. (: You do not necessarily need to help people or fall into social situations which are complicated. Just follow your instincts and keep moving forward. If nobody will follow you, then let me lead you and show you an example of how life should be lived. For after moments of reconnecting with memories from the past, the rest of your time should be creating your life story; and leaving a path for future generations to follow in your wake.
Run as far as you can. Run as far as your stamina will allow you to. Because once you stopped, we will wipe away your sweat and tears. Although we cannot fully clean the wounds on you, we are willing to try our best to always be by your side. Although we cannot replace that special someone you truly wanted, please know that you can emo till the core of the earth, but we will always dig you out and start the whole process again. No, this is not sympathy. This is how we truly care. This is how we truly want to show you how much you meant to us.
And, although it is not much, but if no one appears, you can always count on the only cat you are allowed to keep to bring you back to where you truly belong.
Stay safe in the States.
See you in less than a month.
tO b3 conTinu3d..
Stupid pony.
Ever since I met you, all you have to say about in life since the beginning of our friendship is death, darkness and loneliness. Why are you feeling so hard and down on yourself all the time? That job does not belong to you, and it is not destined to be yours. Everyone knows of the deeds you done for them; they felt it in their hearts. But, not all choose to show although I guess I probably have to stay by your side to remind you from time to time.
There is a reason why everyone manage to outperform you. This is the way the world works so that nobody will boast of their abilities and be arrogant about it. With every performance, everyone will strive to be better. That is how evolution works. Do not take it so deeply to your heart. You know those people who cannot be outperformed by you? They are currently being outperformed by others too. Perhaps deep inside, they might want to be like you. Someone with a kind heart, whom pushes himself to the maximum for the friends he cherished and protects. Everyone who knows you knows how you yearn to be cherished; how long you been searching a light from the way out of the dark.
Let me tell you something you probably already knew. You have tons of friends, but only a small group of close friends. All of us wish the same for you. Happiness. We all tried, one way or another, to bring you up; to surface from the depths of your self-grief. We all tried. One point in our relationship with you, whether it was at the start, in the middle, or at the end. And although many might have given up, there are also many that will try again and again. Always.
Everyone likes you, Jay. That is the reason why people keep you around. You are fun to be with, joking and laughing along with us although there are many times I noticed that smile of yours is not real as your eyes told us everything we need to know. You always have talents and skills of your own. Talents does not necessarily mean you have to excel in Mathematics or doing your assignments and handing them in 2 weeks before the deadline. Talents also involved body language, moral values and one's core personality. And trust me, you are as perfect as the one you wish to be.
Death is not the ending point. There is truly no ending point. One does not need to know where one is going on the road in life. One should just relax and go with the flow. Sure, you will feel like you are wasting time. But, have you considered trying new things you never tried before or risking it all? Be adventurous and let go of the dark. Hold our hand and step foot into the sunlight. It is Adventure Time. (: You do not necessarily need to help people or fall into social situations which are complicated. Just follow your instincts and keep moving forward. If nobody will follow you, then let me lead you and show you an example of how life should be lived. For after moments of reconnecting with memories from the past, the rest of your time should be creating your life story; and leaving a path for future generations to follow in your wake.
Run as far as you can. Run as far as your stamina will allow you to. Because once you stopped, we will wipe away your sweat and tears. Although we cannot fully clean the wounds on you, we are willing to try our best to always be by your side. Although we cannot replace that special someone you truly wanted, please know that you can emo till the core of the earth, but we will always dig you out and start the whole process again. No, this is not sympathy. This is how we truly care. This is how we truly want to show you how much you meant to us.
And, although it is not much, but if no one appears, you can always count on the only cat you are allowed to keep to bring you back to where you truly belong.
Stay safe in the States.
See you in less than a month.
tO b3 conTinu3d..
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